Chapter 1

When I was about 5 or 6 I had this fear that when I grew up God would give me about 6 children, but I hoped I would be lucky and maybe he would only give me 1 or even better none.

Needless to say when I got older and discovered how I decide how many children to have it was a big relief.  But even then I wasn't gone on the idea of having kids and being a father.  But that time was probably a long way off so I didn't think about it often.

WhenI met my wife I was in trouble ............ she loved children, was great with them and worked with them.  And there was no chance of me getting married to her if I didn't want children, so I agreed that a some point we could have one child, we later to her delight decided on two (my mum died and it made me think about what if something happened to me and my wife our child would be on their own.  So we changed to two.)
Still this business of having children was somewhere in the future so I wouldn't have to think about it for a while.  But time goes Quickly and we were planning our wedding and it could only be a matter of time before we started planning a family.And I couldn't imagine planning to have a baby ........................ scary thought.
But I got out of that problem shortly before the wedding I hadn't been well for a while so we decided to postpone the wedding for a year, we had to cancel everything which was hard but it had to be done.  And a couple of months later my wife to be felt funny and decided to try a pregnancy test just to rule it out she was nearly a 100%  it was a false alarm.  But it wasn't ...... and I still remember the day clearly one of us having a panic attack and loosing it going "no no it cant be" and the other nice and calm.
Only it was me who was nice and calm and my wife to be having the panic attack, with me not being well postponing the wedding and now a baby on the way it was a lot to handle.But why was I calm ...... simple I didn't have to plan having a baby now it was done ....... I had already accepted the fact that having  a baby was part of our life so I was ready for that but it was great not to have to plan when.
It took my wife only about a hour to calm down and then she was so excited she had to go tell all her family,  so by the end of the day everyone knew (she couldn't wait until the doctor verified it) .  And that was that baby on the way I now had to get ready for this life changing event.

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Epilogue

Shortly after my daughter Emily was born I was thinking how I would like to do a scrapbook on her about things like when she got her first tooth, her first word, when she started to crawl but I never got around to doing it.  Now she is three years old and she has done so much I’m afraid I’ll forget most of it.

So I have decided to write about it in a blog, and write as much as I can remember, and later then I hope to print it out in a scrapbook and give it to her when she is older.

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